That period represented a significant challenge for me; it was more like a shock, not just a financial shock, but also a psychological and social one. However, what bothered me most was some people’s comments. They would say: “You left your government job, and now you have nothing, while we still have an income”. That is true, but that period taught me many lessons, one of which is that I should not depend on those trips as my sole source of income. Despite enjoying this work, I need to find a job that supports me throughout my life.
At the beginning of the Coronavirus pandemic, I thought it wouldn’t last long, but when trips were canceled, countries closed their airports, and participants refrained from traveling or were unable to travel due to the imposed laws and fear of the disease, I faced a big problem with hotels and trip operators. Some agreed to postpone while others canceled without returning any money according to the contract between us, and the pressure on me was increasing. Many customers had paid me and were waiting for their trips, and some did not understand the situation. They would demand a refund in harsh and cruel tones, and I had to pay them from my own money.
All this put a lot of pressure on me, as if there were many things weighing on my shoulders: people’s money and their demands for it, and some were lecturing me for leaving my job! I didn’t know what I had to do. I told myself that whatever I lose now, Allah would compensate. Until I reached a stage where there was only a small amount of money left in my bank account, I decided to escape from the harshness of everything around me and improve my mood, and of course by traveling. I used the last amount of money in my account, and all I was thinking at the time was: now and the moment, and how to get back to my old self. I booked an apartment for two weeks in London, which is the quarantine period, and I stayed there for nearly two months in Britain and its cities. Later, I left it and traveled to Turkey, and thankfully I was able to manage all that with the money I had, and I felt that Allah has blessed my money. I knew he was always with me and beside me.
Turkey had not imposed any strict social restrictions due to Coronavirus, so I thought of announcing a trip to Turkey. My friend encouraged me, especially as I was burning through my savings, so I knew that at least I had to try. Only 10 people registered for this trip to Turkey, I usually don’t accept more than 12 people because I take them to some small villages with narrow streets so we can’t travel in big buses. The trip was successful, and I announced another trip two months later.
That’s how I got out of the Coronavirus crisis, but then I started working like an engine because I had to compensate. There were still hotels and people I was still indebted to for a while. This is what made me take many consecutive trips to make up for the loss, and thankfully I got out of this crisis, and I decided to stop for a while. I have become stronger and more knowledgeable, and I am not afraid of any sudden circumstances that might occur.